So I survived Friday’s business consultation meeting! After an hour and a half of analyzing projections, profits, and losses, to say that I was feeling discouraged is an understatement. Suddenly, the optimism that had been fueling me for the previous ten days had given way to a world of self-doubt and uncertainty. I wanted to go straight home and either fill out all the paperwork in an effort to find my enthusiasm again, or perhaps find my place in a warm pile of heavy blankets.
Fortunately, I noticed that I was hungry and made a stop at my favorite place for lunch. I sipped iced tea, waited for my grilled chicken breast on whole-wheat with cranberry chutney and greens to arrive, and logged into my email. What I found awaiting me was a wealth of support from friends and mentors. Apparently people had been reading my blog and they were moved, inspired, and interested. Mentors had wonderful questions for me and friends had meaningful words. I was overwhelmed, and recharged.
It made me realize that the thing that matters to me most is that I honor my strengths, surround myself with supportive people, and follow my intuition. No matter how this all turns out, I still have the opportunity to explore and celebrate the experience.
All too often, I have neglected my creative inclinations or used them in problem solving and crisis management. Those are old ways of doing things that I hope to do away with. No one appreciates being used or neglected! I think instead my creative core would welcome love, encouragement, and a chance at the wheel. I’ll do my best to nurture it along!
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